Second Child: March 2008 Archives

As some of you know who are reading this, Lynn and I found out on February 4th that we were pregnant (well, I found out anyway). We unfortunately ceased being pregnant on March 5th. This story is about our lost pregnancy, and how God was faithful to us, even during this time. I decided to put down some thoughts as to what's happened regarding our experience in losing our baby. I explain some thoughts leading up to our decision to get pregnant, and then several thoughts from Feb 28 (when we first found out we probably weren't pregnant) until Mar 5 when we had a surgical procedure after finding out for sure there wasn't a baby - as well as describing some of our experiences in the hospital (don't worry, no yucky details). This was originally intended to be a short email/blog post, but it turned out quite long, as I really wanted to get it all out.

We've wrestled with the decision as to whether or not to be pregnant again for some time now. To be honest, I've been pretty scared of having a second child. You see we have autism in the family, and while I know I'm capable of loving an autistic child, I was having major issues in rolling the dice. Before Samantha, we said that if we got through it and there were no health problems, that we'd stop.

Then when Samantha was two years old (her birthday I was reminded of), during a bathroom break at the mall, Samantha got all gushy about a baby they saw, and from what Lynn told me at the time; I knew we would be revisiting the "stop after one" decision.